I cant stop my tears while I'm writing this. One of my baby has just gone. And yet, he is my adorable Adam. =(
Woke up late than usual, I was about to go to work when I detected something fishy when there were only Aidil and Zerro crying for food. Usually Adam will meowing too, even with his soft spoken voice, I can still hear him calling. But today, it was totally different.
Then I saw him lying helplessly in the box with his favorite blue towel covered. I called him, no response. Again and again, finally I heard a burppp from him. But he's still not moving. I did what I should as a career mum-send emails to my teams saying that I'll be late to office due to some emergency matters, cancelling my 10am meeting which I should chair, cancelling photoshoot for the company(bak kata Kim Kardashians-I dont feel cute and sexy today!) and postponed everything related to work stuffs.
I called the doctor, send her sms, but it could not get through. And the vet centre will only open at 10 am. Disappointed, I tried IM-ing my cat lovers friends, asking for advices on how to deal with this situation. Comfort him, keep him warm, talk to him- I did everything while waiting for the clock ticked to 10.
Finally, it was 10am! I drove immediately to the nearest vet. With all the sad songs on the radios, the tears poured heavier. That time, I realized Adam was not responding at all, no moving, no burping, and no breathing. At the clinic, Dr Rodziah confirmed that Adam has gone. Trembling, shaking and ripped! I cant see any suitable words that could describe myself that time. So I drove back and sobbing all the way long.
I'll wait for kekasyfi hati to bury him. I still miss my adorable Adam, and I don’t know whether I could be with him during his funeral this evening. Tak sampai hati. *crying* Aidil is also crying since this morning when he realizes that he's all alone by now.
Good bye Adam. I love you.
FurFLe Notes: Mourning Friday. Adam has just gone. =(